I'm pissed off. I don't know why. It started when I got in my car after work. I had a perfecly reasonable day. I enjoy my job. Had a pleasant lunch with Topher. Learned some new things about servers. Didn't have to deal with any dinks. It was good.
So I don't know what happened. Where the headache came from. Was it the bad traffic? Which was bad, but not horrible. It just seemed to piss me off a whole lot more today. My shitty car? Which really isn't THAT shitty, but it just pissed me off. I seemed to feel every bump just a little more acutely, and every off vibration from my shitty engine dug into me just a bit more. It was. Is. As though all the negative aspects of life after being magnified a million times. I don't know why. Stress? Anxiety? Missing Jo? It's just all rolling into a big ol fucking mess and pissing me right the fuck off.
I'm going to bed.
(title was pissed off. but when i got to the end of typing this, i added the "right fucking." it seems to fit better. that and i'm more pissed off now than...then...what the fuck, i can't even remember which one to use right now. FUCK right. before. that's the end of the sentence. FUCK)
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
New Job...again. :)
So I got a job! I"ve been here for 3 days now, started last Thursday. I work for a company that is an authorized reseller and training center for Autodesk products. Autodesk makes the whole line of AutoCAD stuff, and Autodesk Inventor, Mechanical, Civil 3D, etc...
I am their new IT guy. Their only IT guy. Right now they have a consultant in charge of it all. He used to work here, but now works for an IT consulting company and probably charges these guys copious amounts of money. So they hired me to take over from him. But I can't see him being very happy about having an internal guy taking over from him, and him losing the contract here. I met him yesterday, and he was a bit of a cocky asshole. I mean I'm sure he is a nice guy, but I'm taking over his job, and that factors in. He was making remarks about how since he was here pretty much from the beginning (Worked here for 6 years) that there isn't enough work to support an IT guy fulltime. Which I can see as being very true. There are only 10 employees, and a computer lab with 14 computers. There will be moments of panic getting something done, but I'm not sure how much. It was just so discouraging talking to him yesterday. Up until then I've been all excited about the things I'll get to do here. And he just shot it all down. I mentioned to him a couple of the things I had in mind for doing here, and he just shot them all down. I know I don't have shitloads of experience and everything, but still, don't be such an asshole. So yeah, he's the only person here who knows anything about thier setup, and he doesn't seem to keen about giving it up. That's going to make life frustrating. That and I am the only person here who knows anything about IT stuff. So there is noone to learn from. It's all going to be trial and error, and self-learning.
Fuck that guy pissed(s) me off! Up until he showed up yesterday I was all excited about being here. Now I'm all frustrated and depressed about this whole thing. And the guy I'm supposed to report to is out of town for the week, so I'm sitting around doing fuck all learning about this new program they want me to work on, and maybe eventually teach. Which will fill up my time when I'm not doing "IT stuff." And I can't see my boss hiring me if she didn't think there would be work to do. It's just that guy! I can't believe it got to me...
Anyways...the atmosphere here seems pretty cool. It is completely devoid of any structure, which will take some getting used to. Everyone just kinda does their own thing. The sales people sit in their offices on the phone, the tech folks, who are the instructors, aer either teaching, or they sit in their office playing around with their respective programs, providing tech support about the software to clients that call in, or just piss around on their computers, kinda like I'm doing right now. Though I've been working all morning, and could just consider this my coffee break. I work 8:30-4:30, 1 hour for lunch, paid, and am salaried. Salary kinda sucks, but we have profit sharing, and with that it makes it alright. But the profit sharing doesn't kick in for 3 months making this time a little rough, and I'm going to get a second job. So everyone here just kinda does their own thing, not a lot of employee interaction, but eveyone seems like nice enough people. There are a couple of young guys may ageish here.
On a side note, I've gotten 3 calls in the past 2 days from millwright places I applied to, just like I figured would happen. /sigh
I am their new IT guy. Their only IT guy. Right now they have a consultant in charge of it all. He used to work here, but now works for an IT consulting company and probably charges these guys copious amounts of money. So they hired me to take over from him. But I can't see him being very happy about having an internal guy taking over from him, and him losing the contract here. I met him yesterday, and he was a bit of a cocky asshole. I mean I'm sure he is a nice guy, but I'm taking over his job, and that factors in. He was making remarks about how since he was here pretty much from the beginning (Worked here for 6 years) that there isn't enough work to support an IT guy fulltime. Which I can see as being very true. There are only 10 employees, and a computer lab with 14 computers. There will be moments of panic getting something done, but I'm not sure how much. It was just so discouraging talking to him yesterday. Up until then I've been all excited about the things I'll get to do here. And he just shot it all down. I mentioned to him a couple of the things I had in mind for doing here, and he just shot them all down. I know I don't have shitloads of experience and everything, but still, don't be such an asshole. So yeah, he's the only person here who knows anything about thier setup, and he doesn't seem to keen about giving it up. That's going to make life frustrating. That and I am the only person here who knows anything about IT stuff. So there is noone to learn from. It's all going to be trial and error, and self-learning.
Fuck that guy pissed(s) me off! Up until he showed up yesterday I was all excited about being here. Now I'm all frustrated and depressed about this whole thing. And the guy I'm supposed to report to is out of town for the week, so I'm sitting around doing fuck all learning about this new program they want me to work on, and maybe eventually teach. Which will fill up my time when I'm not doing "IT stuff." And I can't see my boss hiring me if she didn't think there would be work to do. It's just that guy! I can't believe it got to me...
Anyways...the atmosphere here seems pretty cool. It is completely devoid of any structure, which will take some getting used to. Everyone just kinda does their own thing. The sales people sit in their offices on the phone, the tech folks, who are the instructors, aer either teaching, or they sit in their office playing around with their respective programs, providing tech support about the software to clients that call in, or just piss around on their computers, kinda like I'm doing right now. Though I've been working all morning, and could just consider this my coffee break. I work 8:30-4:30, 1 hour for lunch, paid, and am salaried. Salary kinda sucks, but we have profit sharing, and with that it makes it alright. But the profit sharing doesn't kick in for 3 months making this time a little rough, and I'm going to get a second job. So everyone here just kinda does their own thing, not a lot of employee interaction, but eveyone seems like nice enough people. There are a couple of young guys may ageish here.
On a side note, I've gotten 3 calls in the past 2 days from millwright places I applied to, just like I figured would happen. /sigh
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Friday, November 10, 2006
Lest We Forget
On November 11, 1999 Terry Kelly was in a Shoppers Drug Mart store in Dartmouth, Nova Scotia. At 10:55 AM an announcement came over the store's PA asking customers who would still be on the premises at 11:00 AM to give two minutes of silence in respect to the veterans who have sacrificed so much for us.Terry was impressed with the store's leadership role in adopting the Legion's "two minutes of silence" initiative. He felt that the store's contribution of educating the public to the importance of remembering was commendable.When eleven o'clock arrived on that day, an announcement was again made asking for the "two minutes of silence" to commence. All customers, with the exception of a man who was accompanied by his young child, showed their respect.Terry's anger towards the father for trying to engage the store's clerk in conversation and for setting a bad example for his child was later channeled into a beautiful piece of work called, "A Pittance of Time". Terry later recorded "A Pittance of Time" and included it on his full-length music CD, "The Power of the Dream". ... (more)
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
MY LITTLE BROTHER!
That's my little brother!!! The dude with the gun on the left. That is his tank!
It's from this gallery from the Edmonton Sun.
Monday, November 06, 2006
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
employee of the month
Alright, so maybe Mama Bean is right and I am a professional job changer.
I quit my job yesterday. In a less than stellar fashion. My boss and I had a bit of a run in and it resulted in me leaving.
It started yesterday morning when I was doing a fairly decent job, something I’d never done before but was fairly easy and I was learning things as I was going. Earl (the owner of the company) comes out and asks me in his gruff-pissed off-semi-mad-totally not polite way, “What are you doing?”
To which I reply, “Installing this temperature sensor”
“Have you ever done it before?”
“Ummm…no.” (it’s not like it is a hard thing to do)
“ Well get out of there, I don’t want you doing that. Get over here and drill these holes” (yay a job any fucking monkey could do)
So I’m pissed off at getting shafted out of a decent job to do some bullshit. A few hours later I’m sweeping the floor, cleaning stuff up b/c I hate working in a pig sty, when Earl comes up and in his same assholish manner asks me what I’m doing.
“Ummmm…sweeping the floor?” (what the fuck does it look like, I’m pushing a broom)
“Don’t you have anything else to do?”
(pissed off and attitudy)“No. I’m not qualified to do anything else. Obvioiusly if I haven’t done something once before I can’t do it. So I may as well sweep the floor because I’ve done that before”
“What are you talking about?”
So I explain to him that he pulled me off a job that I was perfectly capable of doing, and had me do some menial task fit for monkeys. He looks at me hard and asks me if I have a problem. By this point I’m right fucking pissed and sick of all this bullshit and having to deal with his demeaning attitude day in and day out and with the way he treats everyone. So I tell him.
“Yeah, I do have a problem. I’m sick of you being a fucking asshole all day long”
He just looks at me. You can see the little gears turning in that thick skull of his. So he turns to my foreman and kinda chuckles “Can you believe this?” and tells Terry to get me to do something.
I just walked away and went back to work All the while this old mechanic named Jim is about 6 feet away behind a truck and starts clapping when I call Earl an asshole. A couple of the guys came over and shook my hand later, and voted me Employee of the Month.
So I worked until the end of the day b/c I need the money since I’m gonna be off for a few days looking for a new job.
And that’s what I am now doing. Looking for work. :) Hopefully this next one will work out a little better than the last 2.
I quit my job yesterday. In a less than stellar fashion. My boss and I had a bit of a run in and it resulted in me leaving.
It started yesterday morning when I was doing a fairly decent job, something I’d never done before but was fairly easy and I was learning things as I was going. Earl (the owner of the company) comes out and asks me in his gruff-pissed off-semi-mad-totally not polite way, “What are you doing?”
To which I reply, “Installing this temperature sensor”
“Have you ever done it before?”
“Ummm…no.” (it’s not like it is a hard thing to do)
“ Well get out of there, I don’t want you doing that. Get over here and drill these holes” (yay a job any fucking monkey could do)
So I’m pissed off at getting shafted out of a decent job to do some bullshit. A few hours later I’m sweeping the floor, cleaning stuff up b/c I hate working in a pig sty, when Earl comes up and in his same assholish manner asks me what I’m doing.
“Ummmm…sweeping the floor?” (what the fuck does it look like, I’m pushing a broom)
“Don’t you have anything else to do?”
(pissed off and attitudy)“No. I’m not qualified to do anything else. Obvioiusly if I haven’t done something once before I can’t do it. So I may as well sweep the floor because I’ve done that before”
“What are you talking about?”
So I explain to him that he pulled me off a job that I was perfectly capable of doing, and had me do some menial task fit for monkeys. He looks at me hard and asks me if I have a problem. By this point I’m right fucking pissed and sick of all this bullshit and having to deal with his demeaning attitude day in and day out and with the way he treats everyone. So I tell him.
“Yeah, I do have a problem. I’m sick of you being a fucking asshole all day long”
He just looks at me. You can see the little gears turning in that thick skull of his. So he turns to my foreman and kinda chuckles “Can you believe this?” and tells Terry to get me to do something.
I just walked away and went back to work All the while this old mechanic named Jim is about 6 feet away behind a truck and starts clapping when I call Earl an asshole. A couple of the guys came over and shook my hand later, and voted me Employee of the Month.
So I worked until the end of the day b/c I need the money since I’m gonna be off for a few days looking for a new job.
And that’s what I am now doing. Looking for work. :) Hopefully this next one will work out a little better than the last 2.
Something Fun
I stole this from Tamara:
(it's amazing how well some of them work. some are rather amusing.)
PUT ALL MUSIC TO MEDIA PLAYER.
PLAY ON SHUFFLE.
CLICK 'SKIP' FOR EVERY QUESTION.
GO.
What does next year have in store for me?
You Give Love a Bad Name - Bon Jovi
What's my love life like?
There's Never Enough Time - The Postal Service
What do I say when life gets hard?
Du Hast - Rammstein
What do I think when I get up in the morning?
Takin' Care of Business - Bachman-Turner Overdrive
What song will I dance to at my wedding?
Song From An American Movie Pt. 1 - Everlast
What do you want as a career?
Choices - George Jones
Your favourite saying?
All I Want Is You - S Club 7
Your pets name?
Vovo Diva - The Watchman
Favourite place?
Your Star - The All-American Rejects
Describe your sexlife:
Trinity - Fleetwood Mac
What do you think of your parents?
Best Intentions - Travis Tritt
What's your superhero name?
Famous One - Chris Tomlin
Where would you go on a first date?
Make Love - Daft Punk
Drug of choice?
Swing Life Away - Rise Against the Machine
Describe yourself:
Beautiful One - Tim Hughes
What is the thing I like doing most?
Let's Love - Melanie C
What is my state of mind like at the moment?
Silent Movie - Natasha Bedingfield
How will I die?
Sailor to a Siren - Meatloaf
(it's amazing how well some of them work. some are rather amusing.)
PUT ALL MUSIC TO MEDIA PLAYER.
PLAY ON SHUFFLE.
CLICK 'SKIP' FOR EVERY QUESTION.
GO.
What does next year have in store for me?
You Give Love a Bad Name - Bon Jovi
What's my love life like?
There's Never Enough Time - The Postal Service
What do I say when life gets hard?
Du Hast - Rammstein
What do I think when I get up in the morning?
Takin' Care of Business - Bachman-Turner Overdrive
What song will I dance to at my wedding?
Song From An American Movie Pt. 1 - Everlast
What do you want as a career?
Choices - George Jones
Your favourite saying?
All I Want Is You - S Club 7
Your pets name?
Vovo Diva - The Watchman
Favourite place?
Your Star - The All-American Rejects
Describe your sexlife:
Trinity - Fleetwood Mac
What do you think of your parents?
Best Intentions - Travis Tritt
What's your superhero name?
Famous One - Chris Tomlin
Where would you go on a first date?
Make Love - Daft Punk
Drug of choice?
Swing Life Away - Rise Against the Machine
Describe yourself:
Beautiful One - Tim Hughes
What is the thing I like doing most?
Let's Love - Melanie C
What is my state of mind like at the moment?
Silent Movie - Natasha Bedingfield
How will I die?
Sailor to a Siren - Meatloaf
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