I think I am going to enjoy working here.
Well it is for certain now. Mama Bean is going to Palmer. Yeah! Mixed emotions here. I am really happy for her. It is awesome that she got accepted and she can go on and do that which she wants to do. It is awesome. It is also kinda sad. Merely on a selfish level. It means she is leaving. I think up until now I have harboured thoughts that maybe she wouldn't get in, or maybe she would decide to do something else...or i dunno. Totally selfish thoughts. Very insignificant back-of-the-mind-thoughts. I can't be selfish about Jo, it isn't healthy for our relationship. I learned that. It is going to be quite the experience. Her moving halfway across the continent. It is going to be fun. Tough, but fun. Yay for Jo! That's my baby! *big hug* I am really happy for her, for us.
*smile*
I guess I am really happy that she made it in. Yeah, I will miss her, and yeah, I still don't know what the fuck I am doing. (Not working somewhere that is going to pay enough money to save to go to school, let alone pay off my loans anytime soon. *sigh*) Yeah, I am glad she got in. *smile* She gets to move out, experience life on her own. And I am the lucky guy that gets to stand by her side, albeit from way over here. But that is alright. I will go see her regularly.
I am getting better at this whole missing her thing. I still miss her when she goes away, but it isn't as intense and crippling. I didn't even cry when she left fro Vancouver last week. Yes there were tears in my eyes, but none of them broke the barrier. *smile* Yay!
I am pissed off that I missed the Missions Fest in Edmonton this weekend. I really wanted to go. I don't know why. I don't believe in short term missions unless it is to educate ppl that want to go on long term missions. And I don't want to do that, so I don't know what has piqued my interest so much. *shrug*
I have been really missing school lately. The ppl, the classes, even the sitting in the bathroom and talking to the guys while taking a shit. I just talked to Alastair tonight. It was really nice. I hadn't talked to him since I left.
I really miss talking to Sam. She is not doing bery well, and seems to be getting depressed. I hope things begin to look up for her. I hate seeing her like this.
I love how I start writing on here, and I just start rambling. So I am going to cut it short here.
Now.
End.
No comments:
Post a Comment