Happy Thoughts

Climbing on the counter next to the sink to wach my feet after coming in from playing outside.

Building sandcastles on the beach with a moat that ran down to the water. Or digging a hole on the beach deep enough to reach the water.

Watching Sesame Street with that bald black guy, I can't remember his name, but he was pretty cool. Gordon, that was his name. I enjoyed him.

Playing one of the 3 wise men in the Christmas Pageant. Back when I was in grade 1 or 2. It was fun.

Picking potatoes in the backyard of some peoples house that we knew from church and digging up them and playing with the dirt.

Going g.t.ing in grade 12 on Christmas day with the boys. Flying down that hill, in the gravel pit. Piling all of us on the tobbogan and trying to make it down the hill without spilling.

The innocence of childhood.

"You took the words right out of my mouth. It must have been while you were kissing me. And I swear its true, I was just about to say 'I love you.'" -Meatloaf

Listening to 80's music. Sappy love songs. Air Supply, Meatloaf, CCR, Springsteen, etc...

Having the leading roles in plays in school.

Going to the shooting range and getting 8 of 10 shots in the black with 2 bulls eyes.

Swimming in the ocean in Australia. Playing in the waves while the currents push me around.

Long, hot bubble baths in a jacuzzi tub.

Happy thoughts. Sometimes they can really help.

acts of kindness are wonderful

Yay! 2 years with my Jo.

I was so impressed. Yesterday, there was a guy running to catch the train, and a guy had gotten off and was walking away, quickly ran back to stop the door from closing and held it until the running guy got there. I never see that happen very often. More often than not ppl just watch the doors close and the person run up to it and is not able to get on. So sad. Acts of kindness are wonderful.

My boss is a bit of an idiot. I don't know what it is about being a summer student, but almost every summer job I have had, the boss talks to me/us as if we are two. I don't mind explanations, even if they are about the stupidest things, or stuff I already know, but don't talk to me like I am 2. He also gets pissed off at us if we are doing something wrong, or rather "inefficient," though he hasn't taught us otherwith. Then he gets all passive-aggressive for the next couple of hours. It is rather annoying. Today I was trying to raise my 32' ladder. It is the kind where you pull the rope and the top part goes up along the wheels. My hand slipped while I was pulling the rope up and the ladder slipped and fell, collapsing in on itself, knocking me down, and making lots of noise. My boss watches this all happen, then comes over all pissed off, and proceeds to tell me how to do it properly and whatnot. I was thinking "Fuck off, I know what I am doing. My hand just slipped." Fucking guy. I ended up scraping a knuckle and I have a bump on the top of my head. I think he was worried that I would get hurt and get worker's comp. or something or take time off. 'Cause you know "Time is money." Stupid.

I was invited to Rob Penner's stag party tonight. Yay, I am popular. Well not really, but it made me feel special that I was invited. But I don't have anyway of getting there. My parents are at a meeting so I can't even scam a ride off of them, and my Mama Bean is busy. Sad. Oh well, hopefully they won't think that I don't like them and never invite me to anything again.

I got this really cute little cat statuette of a cat from Jo. It is really cute, yet kinda creepy because it has no eyes, just empty black sockets. He is really cool though. I quite like him.

Poor Sicky Me

I feel like total shit right now. I think I must have the absolute worst immune system. It is the middle of the friggin summer and I have a cold. What gives?

I also burned my arms and back of my neck quite bad today, I am sure that didn't help matters.

When I started this just, I told myself, "No sick days." Cause sometimes I take them even if I am not too terribly sick. Just cause the break is nice and the rest does get rid of that little bit that is wrong with me. But right now I am really sick. I feel so awful.

I love the dry, bitterness of xtra strength Neo-citron. It is so wonderful.

I can't sleep though. I am coughing too much. I bought this neo-citron, but I forgot to buy some cough syrup, oh but for a tablespoon of buckleys right now.

I am going to finish this lovely drink and try to sleep. Call my boss in the morning, feel bad about it, and sleep some more. Buy some cough syrup, and then sleep somemore. Sound like a good deal? It does to me. 'Cept the feeling bad part. I hate calling in sick. Even though I am really sick...sad. It is like the boy who cried wolf, kinda, cept twisted and backwards kinda like.

Well I am all done my drink and I am getting sleepy. My coughing is kinda subsiding so I guess we will see how my night goes...

I am so sore. I spent 8 hours today on my hands and knees dapping (caulking) base boards. By the end of the day my back was beginning to give out and my legs were like jelly. It sucked. But the thought never once crossed my mind that I should quit. I am quite impressed with myself.

Hopefully it doesn't rain or else I will have to do it again tomorrow. We are only half finished. Then we have to go back and paint all the baseboards. If it doesn't rain, we will get to finish the job we started on Tues. Painting. Outside. The funner stuff. I am looking forward to it.

There are only 3 guys on our crew. Me, my boss, and this guy Jordan. Jordan just finished his first year at U of C in business. He is on the U of C football team. He is one of those kids that did awesome in High school, was the star of the football team etc... His dad is a lawyer/part-time judge, his mom a councilor. His older sister is in Law school. At the end of grade 11 he got a brand new mustang. He is a pretty cool guy though. I think this is the first job he has actually had. He has always been too busy playing football. He is fun to work with though.

My boss, Lawrence, has a weird sense of humor. He says things, and we aren’t sure if he is joking or serious. It is a little disconcerting.

I missed Jo’s convocation today’ That sucks. I feel bad. What kind of a boyfriend doesn’t go to his girlfriend’s university convocation? I will try to make it up to her. I just feel really bad about it.

I have written a letter to adidas telling them about my tendonitis and how it was caused by their shoes. I don’t think they will do anything, but just in case’

My ass is really sore, as is my back and my legs and the rest of my body, so I am going to go and lie down and recuperate.

P.S. I hate having to sit here and wait to be able to post this thing. It is rather annoying.

In only 107 moves

Yay! I just beat Spider Solitaire with 2 suits in 107 moves. That is pretty close to my one suit score.

The Proud Owner of a Library Card

I am now the proud owner of a Calgary Public Library Card. Useable at over 15 public libraries city wide. It allows me to borrow books (over 2,000,000), music CDs, CD-ROMs, videos, books on tape, and back issues of magazines. And, after the first 60 days, I am able to take out unlimited items. I could literally go into the store with a shopping cart and go around picking stuff up, and as long as I return it by the due date, I am fine.

So for a piddly $10 fee, for the next year, I am able to go down to any of the public libraries, and get any book I want. I can take out 100's of dollars worth of books, all because I have, in my possession. *big smile* Think of the adventures I can have. The fun and excitment that I will enjoy over the next year.

And now, for my convenience, they offer e-mail notification when my books are due, when my book I placed on hold, which I can do online, is in, or search the library catalogue from the comfort of my own home.

Yay!

I really want to go and see Meatloaf this summer. It is his final world tour. Then he is going to stop making music and concentrate on acting, unfortunatly. I love the guy and his music, but his acting leaves something to be desired. He is only playing in the states, which either means a 2 day bus ride either way, or coughing up the cash to fly. Just bus alone is $200 plus the price of the concert and the days I miss work. But I really want to go! It is his last tour EVER. But I already don't have enough money to go to school in the fall, so I can't really afford this...but I want to go SO BAD. What to do, what to do...

Time to go and get Jo.

a prolix, tedious bit of crap

I just finished watching Bruce Almighty. It was quite good. It was a really shitty copy that someone filmed on a hand recorder in a theater, but it was fun. There are lots of little semi-hidden messages. I like Jim Carrey though, so I am a little biased.

I got to go for lunch with my Mama Bean today. That was really nice. I won't be able to do that anymore...I start my new job next week. I am getting a little nervous about it, but I am excited.

As I was perusing different scholarships on the net today, I noticed that there are a lot of essay ones. I think I am going to have to try my hand at writing a few of them. See if I can get any money for school. There is this one on Thomas Wolfe. I think he is one of those romantics from way back when, so I decided to get a book of his (using my wonderful library card of course). Even if I don't do the essay, I figure it would be good to familiarize myself with some of his writings as he is supposed to be such an amazing guy. (I think we studied something by him in grade 12)

Why can't things just hurry up? Like life. I know years from now I will wish that things had gone slower and there are so many things I missed out on. But right now, I just want time to go by. I want to be in school already, not having to work for another 3 months. I want to be done school and have Mama Bean back home so I can marry her (Shhhh...). I just want life to get somewhere so that I can settle down and live. I hate all this hoping around, school to school. Job to job. Besides the drain on monetary funds, it is stressful. Despite what many people think, I don't actually enjoy it. I would much rather be going into my fourth year of something. Be one year away from getting my degree. In what? Who knows, something I enjoy preferably. But then what do I enjoy? One semester it is personal training, the next it is industrial mechanics, followed shortly after by Bible College and then computers. WTF!?!?! Why can't I just decide? Why can't I just do something? Stick with something. Like I have stuck with Jo. Almost 2 years and never a thought about quitting. Why can't I do that with the rest of my life? ARGH!!!

One day. One day things will come together and everything will be fine and dandy.

Yeah right.

Wednesday, Jun. 04, 2003~~9:28 p.m.

I just downloaded the new OLP album, I kinda like it. It is pretty decent. I love high speed internet. It is too bad I used such a good word in my title for such a crappy entry...

I have to get up and go to physio for 7:45 tomorrow morning. I don't think I have been up that early in a very long time. My calf is still sore from the massage she gave me last week.

maybe I should go to bed soon...

The annoying guy on the train. . . Me

love being the guy on the train with the loud music. The guy that is sitting there, music blaring, oblivious to all but his music. Yeah, that was me tonight. Totally by accident. I was moving stuff around in my bag when I bumped the volume knob. 'Twas alright though, it was good ol' Meatloaf music. So I didn't mind. When I looked up from straightening my stuff, I noticed ppl kept looking over at me, giving me the look. It was then that I realized I was that guy. The one that annoys everyone. I just smiled, closed my eyes, and leaned back. Letting them enjoy the wondrous music that was Bat out of Hell. *laugh* I am going to have to do it more often.

I have that song, Dream Police - Cheap Trick stuck in my head right now. I love it. The chorus is just going round and round in my mind.

I love being paid 3 times in one month. It makes life so much more wonderful, and so much easier to save money for school. Though it seems as though the moment I put some money away, some essential item will become needed, dentist, orthotics, groceries. I hope to one day, be the kind of person that Topher and I were talking about. About being able to complain about the price of luxuries, as opposed to the price of groceries, or transportation, or basic medical care. I don't want to have to worry that the price of bananas have gone up 10 cents/lb. Or that chicken is only 10.39/kg as opposed to last week when it was 9.50/kg.

Though why I complain about the price of produce, when I can get a cucumber and a head of lettuce for less than the price of a SuperValue meal at McDonalds, and get far more meals out of the deal. Something is wrong there.

Time for bed, tomorrow I tell the ladies that this is my final week that I will be gracing them with my presence. *sigh* Here goes nothing...