leaving

letting go of that last imbrace
saying that last i love you
turning and walking out the door, resisting the urge to turn back
walking down the driveway and getting into my car
ignoring the tears running down my face
starting the engine, starting to pull away, still resisting
giving in just a little by stopping and blowing one last kiss, giving one last wave, almost turning back
turning my head and driving away, blinking the tears from my eyes as i drive down the road
ignoring the massive lump in my stomach
the pain in my throat growing as i keep myself from crying
knowing i won't see her for another couple of months
crying myself asleep missing her already