/sigh

I don't know about me. I'm leaving for Edmonton in half an hour here, and I have all the sound gear for church tomorrow morning sitting in my front entrance. Of course they forgot that I am gone for the weekend, so there it sits. I had totally forgotten about it until late last night. And so, instead of calling someone to come get it, and possibly inconvenienceing them, I'm going to drive to Edmonton (3 hrs), hang out, etc... and at 6am, I will drive back down here to grab the sound gear and have it at church for the 9 o'clock setup. I also doubt there is anyone around who would be able to pick up the sound gear, as there is a big church retreat this weekend, and most of them are out of town at that thing, including all the ppl that generally do anything with the church.
It's a good thing the clocks turn back an hour, I'm gonna need that extra sleep.

That hurt

So today I made a left turn that cost me $172. :(

I was looking for this pawn store on Whore Alley....errr 17th Ave. that apparently has a bunch of airtools on sale. I missed my turn, so I turned off, and was going to make a loop when I turned down this street, and Mr. Cop waves me to the side. Me and 4 others. Turns out that between 3:30 and 8, left turns onto that street are illegal. And there are 2 signs that were supposedly telling me so. Too bad in my flustered state I completely missed them. Apparently so did all these other people. So we all got served with this huge ass fucking ticket.

I guess I kinda have it coming, Karma style. See I speed all the time. Well not ALL the time. But 75% of the time. The remainder being the time I'm stuck in rush hour traffic and not able to. I haven't gotten a speeding ticket since last May, and that was just due to my lack of attention b/c it was photo radar. So I am kinda just getting my just desserts. But still...I could be going pretty fricking fast to get a 172 dollar ticket. This blows.

So anyway, that was the most expensive left turn of my life.

(oh, and i'm using blogger beta now, i hope it doesn't change anything)

angry

I am so very angry right now. My fucking condo board has sent me YET ANOTHER letter telling me not to park in the no parking zone. Except I haven't been. So now I'm mad. I want to call her up tomorrow and rip her a new asshole. Last time I was civil, does that not give me the right to be slightly less so this time? Instead, I will send her a letter. Registered mail. And I will politly ask her to send someone over here and show me EXACTLY where the fuck I can and cannot park. And if those dimensions infringe on what my condo documents say, we are going to have a big problem.
So here I sit. Angry. At her. At my boss. At my job. At my inability to just accept things, to settle. At life not going the way I wanted it to. I'm just angry.

sloth

the shitty thing about when you stay at home all day, don't go out, don't really do a whole heck of a lot, is when it comes time for bed, it doesn't feel right. there's no winding down. it's like the day just ends. it's weird.

oh, and yeah, ragheads is a lousy word to use to describe someone. not cool, i shouldn't have one that. and it does suck to be a civilian over there right now. heck, all the time. the wars don't end there. but if/when it comes down to it, i'm rooting for my brother.

he's left

I said good-bye to my little brother yesterday. I will not see him again until the end of February. Though in actuality, it could be never. That is the reality about it. He's going off to fucking war.... I might never see the kid again. Though that isn't likely to happen. Still, it looms over our heads.It's gonna be weird. He won't be around for Christmas, my mom's birthday, Valentines day with his girlfriend, so many missed events. Just because a bunch of fucking ragheads on the other side of the world are blowing each other up. Don't get me wrong, I'm not anti-war, but this is my little brother I'm talking about here. I get all conflicted when I think about him over there. Here he is, his life on the line, fighting for some unknown objective that I'm sure not even the politians know. Yeah, he signed up for it, but that is beside the point. I sit here and bitch about how shitty my job is and how my boss fucked me over, or any other complaint, all while there are guys over there getting shot at. Having to be wary of anyone not in the same uniform as them b/c they just might have 20 pounds of C4 strapped to their chest. My complaints just seem so minimal. In the grand scheme of things, they really don't matter. But they matter to me. Does that make me a selfish person? I need to learn how to keep this all in perspective. I need to figure how to sort out this shit. Either way, my prayers are with him. With all the guys over there.

Argh!

I'm am getting SERIOUSLY pissed right the fuck off because of this fucking bullshit! I go to Yahoo! to watch music videos. Except it won't let me, because they are not allowed to show them outside of the US because of copyright laws. So I try MTV.com, same thing. Copyright. Then I see that certain shows are now available on the internet. So if I miss an episode of Grey's Anatomy, I don't need to fret, I just have to go to the ABC site and I can watch it there. Or so I thought, but no. Same with a CBS show, The Unit. It has full episodes online. But can I watch them? No, because of these same FUCKING copyright laws. Seriously!?!??! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH FUCKING AMERICA!! I can watch all the same shows on TV, but not on the internet. I thought the internet was all about freedom of information and all that shit? You never used to be able to limit content to ppl from only certain countries. That was one of the joys of the internet, you could surf whereever, see whatever, all from the comfort of your own home. There were no limitations. But then the fucking government has to put it's fucking nose in where it doesn't belong. So now, all those piracy ads on TV, and in theaters, they can lick my hairy nut sack. Them and all their fucking rules. I never really cared before, but sometimes I'd feel a twinge of guilt and buy it. Not anymore. FUCK YOU RIAA, FUCK YOU US Gov't, FUCK YOU ANYONE THAT SAYS ANYTHING TO THE CONTRARY!
Assholes!
(btw, if anyone knows a way to mask your ip, or knows of a browser within a browser so I can access this stuff, please let me know)

Why do I even bother?

Helping ppl that is. I get calls/requests from ppl on a regular basis to help them with ther computer woes. Technical problems? I can help. Need a computer built? I do that as well. Need a network setup, or a system spec'd out? I can do all that too.What irks me is when I put time and effort into heling someone, and they don't heed my advice, or make use of the work I have done for them. I've had ppl ask me to spec out a potential computer for them, gave me a big list of shit they wanted. I spent hours figuring it all out, pricing out different options, changing different variables to optimize everything, and laying it all out. What do they do? Go to a big box store and buy some piece of shit off the shelf which gave them less for their money than what I could have done. And to top it all off, they didn't even tell me until I asked about it weeks later. Or what about when someone comes to me with a doozy of a problem? I spend time figuring out how to fix the problem. Be it struggling with them over the phone trying to help them, or spend time researching it so I can either explain to them how to do it, or fix it for them. What happens to all that time spent helping them? It is thrown away b/c they don't have the patience and just take it into a computer store costing them LOTS of money, and wasting all my time. Or someone calls asking for help, explaining their problem, I tell them how to fix it, and they dont' even bother doing it. They call a whole bunch of other ppl, ask them the same question, get a million different answers (b/c company computer tech ppl are full of shit), and I get a phone call back being told all this shit that these other ppl are telling him!ARRRRRRGGGGGHHHH!Seriously! If you want my fucking help, I really don't mind helping you. In fact, I rather enjoy it. But don't waste my time. Don't ask for something unless you are going to actually consider it. And DON'T ask for technical support and then take it into a fucking shop!