Shot down

I got the biggest shot to me self-esteem today. Lawrence told me that I was going to be doing these menial little tasks while Jordan helped him by moving the ladders around for him while he was spraying the top half of the roof, because I am not quite strong enough, and Jordan is stronger than me. (Jordan is a linebacker on the U of C football team) It wasn't so much the reference to Jordan being stronger than me, but the fact that I was being delegated to the shit jobs b/c I wasn't strong enough. WTF? I haven't been told that since grade 10 when I tried out fro wrestling and got my ass kicked b/c I wasn't terribly strong for my size. It was like a kick to the nuts. I realize I have lost some size and strength since I have not had enough money to go the gym, but... it just sucked. I think that it was a sign to start kicking my ass into shape, gym or not. I can do enough stuff at home so that by the time I go back to school and use the gym there I will at least be in decenter shape than now. It just really hit me. I guess I have gotten comfortable with my strength enough that it hasn't really bothered me that I have been letting it slip. Quite the wake-up call.

Well I have determined that my boss considers me a disappointment. How sad is that? I think he was expecting me to have more experience than I actually did. Whenever he tells me to do something, he gets all pissed off and yells and me or whatnot. When Jordan does something wrong, or he has to tell him something, he is polite about it. Well semi-polite. It is rather annoying.

I have self-diagnosed myself with an attitude problem. When Lawrence got made at me the other day because he didn't think I was doing something fast enough, "Quit screwing around Chris, you are taking way too long doing that. Just tape the stupid thing. Not there, over there." Immediately slowed down. Not consciously. I sub-consciously told him to fuck off and slowed down because I didn't like his attitude toward me. *laugh* It sounds so childish when I actually write it out. I found it quite amusing, after-the-fact. Jordan just told Lawrence today that this will be his last 2 weeks. He has decided to go on this trip through U of C, to Sweden for a month or so. *laugh* I wonder who he will hire, if anyone. That is going to suck. I hope I don't have to work with Lawrence by myself.

It's Official!

Waivers came in to satisfy the 2 conditions yesterday. We have now sold the house! July 31st is possession, and I will be a little sad to say bye. It was "our" first place.

So today marks the 4 week mark until possession date. This means we have 4 weeks to update resumes, find jobs, pack, arrange for movers or u-haul/ryder, clean and get our asses out of here. And for Mama Bean to move there site unseen. She's never been to Winnipeg, but I'm certain she will love it.

We are not going to be buying a house right away, rather we're going to try and find a month-to-month rental and start looking for a house then. This will allow us to go out there, find areas we like, get settled a bit, and not be so rushed with the whole process. It'll open up so much more for us.

Yay!

Congratulations!

For some reason I tend to follow mom blogs...not sure why. But I want to say a HUGE congratulations to Miss One Smarmy Mama over at times and places. She is the most "most crunchy-granola working mama/wife/reader/geek " I know, and I have learned so much about parenting and pregnancy and whatnot, that I think will really help when Mama Bean and I have kids.

So YAY!

Also, on a slightly sadder note, my friend skippymom seems to have disappeared. I’ve been reading her blog for quite some time now, and she has commented on mine on many occasions. She’s the one who made me think about relationships that develop in the “blogosphere” and how she’s become a part of my blogging friends. So I’m not sure where she went, but I really hope she’s okay. And if you are reading this Skippymom, I miss you and I hope everything is okay.

It Sold!

Well, conditionally anyway. Tomorrow is the house inspection, and as long as there isn't more than $3000 in repairs, it's official! Possession is July 31st. This gives us just 5 short weeks to find jobs, find a place to live (be it rent or buy), pack and move! Whhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeee! So exciting! It's actually real now.

I sent an e-mail to Malcolm (our worship leader) letting him know that we will be done at the end of July and it kinda hit. I'm really going to miss these people. I'm not going to miss anyone like I do this church (family aside). Our care group, our ball team, our worship team....everyone. Miss Stacey, Fred and Tasha, Mr. Nelson, Jesse, Corey and Crystal, the little kidlings, Malcolm...so many people that I've developed a relationship with. I've lived in Calgary for 8 years, and have developed more meaningful relationships in the past year than the past 7 combined. It has truly been a blessing to find this church and these people. I love them so much, and am amazed at just how much I'm going to miss them. The love and support we have received has been overwhelming, and will be truly missed.

So thank you guys. I'm gonna miss you all.

God is Bigger Than...

My wife and her two best friends wrote this amazing article for a liberal Christian magazine, "Geez." They entered a contest called "30 Sermons you wouldn't hear in Church." Mama Bean took a blog post that she had written previously and Kari and Heather added to and edited it and sent it in. And they got in! Their sermon/article/whatever was published! Yay them! It's all about how God is bigger than...EVERYTHING! It's cool. Read it. Comment on her blog and let her know what you think. And try to find love for the first guy that posted a comment, he's in need of some.

You can read it online here. It's pretty friggin awesome.

Mama Bean wrote a bit about it here.

Following that entry she received a comment. A rather lengthy one I must say, and one that spews nothing but vile, hate filled words under the guise of Christianity. His profile talks about love, forgiveness and peace, and yet writes shit like, "And the “strongest thing” in the evil one’s worldly systems? “Woman”…" and "Now “the ground was cursed for Adam’s sake” because he “hearkened unto the woman”. Adam listened to a woman rather than obeying The Only True GOD."

This guy trolls the internet (i've found him in multiple places) and sullies the name of Christians everywhere. He is what is wrong with Christians today. How are we supposed to show people that Christians are loving, forgiving, and selfless when there is so many people like him?

It makes me sad. And yet Jo's article gives me hope. And the fact that he responded, must meant that he read some of it at least. This is good. Maybe just reading that added another chink in his armour. Another spot for God to work on him, and show him what love really is. Isn't that what Mama Bean wrote about? God is bigger right? He's bigger than this guys smallness. And that gives me hope. It gives me joy. It helps me not want to not cut his fucking balls off and stuff them down his throat and choke him to death with them for writing shit like that about my wife.


(psst...no profanity...you should be proud of me miss stacey)